Wow I have no outside contact with T and absolutely struggle with feeling he hates me. Right now I am feeling that acutely. For me it likely has to do with echoes from my past, absent father, etc. But in general I am very quick to feel disliked and it makes me want to run the other way. I really feel like I want to quit right now.
My last T was far less experienced and kind of on the wrong track with me as far as the root of my issues but I *loved* the contact and never once felt deprived.