When you texted me that you weren't available yesterday I slightly panicked inside. I explained my reason for needed an appt. and you simple responded that you couldn't fit me in till our usual time next week, "Sorry". Period. No "...hang in there..." No word of encouragement or concern, nothing. I mean I get the boundary thing but damn.

Then I was embarrassed that I tried to reach out to you but I was in an emotional place. That's not your fault.

Thing is, I took a deep breath and then I took steps to take care of myself. I found other resources. I made a plan. I made a call to a friend. So, yeah I'm okay. I guess you knew I would be.

Then lo and behold at the end of the night, you text me back that a spot opened up. Did you change your mind? Or did something actually change? I wonder.

**** it, I know not to read into it. I'm grateful you have a spot. I know what I need and I'll use the time wisely.