I was in denial about the diagnosis for a while. I was first diagnosed with just "depression", no MDD or anything. Then it evolved into MDD, then finally Bipolar 1

It helped me when my pdoc and I reviewed my psychiatric history. My pdoc told me, "I knew something was wrong when you said you were depressed and full of energy at the same time, as well as getting 3 hours of sleep a night. It's not normal to be energetic when you're depressed. That's a mixed state."

That convinced me. It might help you if you do the same