Jaynedough,I just want to say don't despair or feel bad...some people can be so duplicitous,saying they understand and reeling us in then showing us they are going to judge us anyway and reject us for the very reasons we knew they would all along.I guess we feel duped that we go against our better judgement and trust them in the first place.

It is awful what happened with your neighbors persuading you to go to their parties and it all going wrong and them rejecting you.Please don't blame yourself..whatever the reasons for things going wrong they can be rectified.You can learn social skills,the art of conversation and develop the instincts you needs to know what behaviors to do and not do that alienate others...it isn't rocket science I promise!It does sound though like you did very little wrong cos as you say you don't to this day know what happened or what you did to upset them.
I myself have difficult meeting new people and making friends,it bothers me but I have social anxiety...I get lonely but I would never reject myself cos someone has found me unacceptable to their standards.I am used to being the lone wolf too...sometimes I prefer it that way other times I am desperate.
I think we take on too much of the blame when relationships go wrong and other people let us down I've found it much easier to let go of family and friends etc who don't pay me the time ,attention and respect I deserve,I let them get on with their lives and turn my attention to other things and people that benefits me.I don't like to be dependent on anyone for anything,including their company since I was abused and used by my sister for years!
Jaynedough,please don't feel bad, you aren't to blame and I am sure things will get better for you if not with these people you say you were so close to with another set of people!Marylinx