Haven't been on the forums for a few months. It is so difficult for me to settle on doing something and then to do that thing consistently over time. But I am trying to get back into the swing of things again.

So sad, so much anguish. I feel like my life is just over, like there's no way to fix all the heavy, burdensome problems in my life. I feel completely different from others, like I am truly the exception to "You are not alone." But I know that that can't really be the case, that it's self-absorbed to think that, which then just makes me feel worse for being so self-absorbed!