So, I stopped seeing my therapist about a year ago. She said her door is always open, but I haven't gone back yet. I like her, but the cost was pretty steep for me to continue on a regular basis. I've had some good days since then, but also a pretty decent depression. I started to feel like I was coming out of it and felt what must have been baseline for almost a week. It felt SOOOO amazing! I don't remember feeling like that before. I wasn't hopped up on anxiety, irritability or impulsivity. I had energy and interest in doing things. And I felt happy. It was awesome, and it gave me hope.

Then, I dropped off the ledge again this week. (I hate this roller coaster.) My husband is having a really hard time coping with the ups and downs and knowing how to communicate with me about it without making me feel even worse. He has a hard time talking about his frustration when there isn't an obvious target (a person or thing) - he ends up making me feel like the target of his frustration or anger, even though that's not his aim. He just doesn't have a proper target, and I have a tendency to internalize his emotions. The combination is bad, making me feel like I'm responsible for his frustration and anger...and to an extent I think that's not far off the mark (at least, my condition is responsible for a lot of that).

I'm wondering, and he has asked me, whether arranging a session, or a few, with my T to work on this would be useful? Can my husband get coping strategies out of that, or is it a futile effort? He doesn't like feeling helpless or like he can't solve it - and that's exactly the end result of dealing with BP.

Any out there have experience or advice to offer?