Welcome and my respects to you. You have endured a lot . To me, that word, loser, is not acceptable. I do not belong to your culture, so it is difficult for me to understand it. But, in any event, if there is a "loser" in this world, that one is not you. You have participated in several unfortunate events and your background is not an easy one. And our times are fluid times. Constantly people are losing relationships, jobs, homes, even countries. I hear (read) all types of stories from different parts of the world, everyday. People that are losing everything and do not have a place to go. Before communities used to embrace people. Now, we do not have anybody. Even if you have a family. It is happening to me right now. It is difficult for me to understand and survive this way. I was raised to exercise solidarity, always. But now what I see is individualism and loneliness, everywhere.
Going back to you, you have endured a lot. Here, I am sure you will find peers to chat and correspond. I don't do chats, but you can PM me anytime. I find a lot of support here.
Please, keep posting.
And remember, IMO you are not a loser.