I have been very unstable as of late. Terrible mixed episodes. Up and down and all around. No sleeping. No eating. Left my job. SI. Off my meds since December/January. Thankfully back on for 2 days now, I think I see a light somewhere up ahead!

There's this thing that really troubles me, (and please let me know if you've experienced this as well), the people that are closest to me have no clue what mental illness is. Recently I have found myself (finally!) letting it fly!! I told my husband that he needs to go educate himself on what my disorders actually are, and what they actually entail. While on the phone with my mother I asked, "Do you actually even know what I have (10 years after being "officially" diagnosed, in and out of hospitals, seeing doctors, taking medications, etc)?". She replied, "O, you have depression and s-*t". She didn't know the name BIPOLAR DISORDER!! She had never even heard of Borderline Personality Disorder. I told her to go online and educate herself because I am getting so frustrated and feel as if I am being humored by the people closest to me. I think they are under the impression that Bipolar translates to "moody bit*h".
There is an atypical method to my madness dammitt!!
I think my husband just did a WIKI search. So, I am trying to keep mindful, and explain a little bit at a time. Baby Steps. I, myself, am learning a lot through Psych Central, therefore I can articulate my symptoms as opposed to saying, "Yeah...I feel like crap", and holding it all in. I am off to visit my mother next week, and I plan on a good heart to heart. I know she loves me and cares for me...but, I just want her to understand.

Thank you Psych Central Forum for letting me vent!!!