I don't even know what to type. I am heartbroken to start. My husband lost a part of himself this morning when his grandpa passed away. I am grieving this loss also. He has been like my own grandpa for the last 12 years.

When my husband came home just now, I didn't even know how to react. I hugged him enormously and told him I loved him but it felt a little awkward. I'm not sure what is okay and what is not okay. I heard him sobbing in the basement so I went down just to let him know I am here for anything he needs. He said he just wants to be alone. I know this is hard for him. He is grieving deeply for Grandpa just as he is torn and grieving for a broken marriage.

I know there will be joy again but I just need a little break for a while. I need some sunshine. I don't think I can handle anything else.