Your compulsions are very different than mine (my compulsion is to call people and seek reassurance from close friends and family when I'm anxious), but I understand feeling the need to do something a certain way to alleviate anxiety. My anxiety is often unbearable, but I see a psychiatrist and a psychologist and we are working on getting it under control (I just started a new medication which is starting to help). There is a book that helped me a lot: The OCD Workbook by Bruce M. Hyman. Best wishes!