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Old May 20, 2016, 10:38 PM
musinglizzy musinglizzy is offline
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I know I'm a broken record... but just adding my own take to this post.... yes, I guess I DID receive special treatment in therapy. My T started coming over to sit by me, she'd put her arm around me and pull me to her, and hold me. Rub my back, play with my hair, etc etc. I don't think I ever felt more safe, cared for and loved as I did during those times. After a few months of this, she stopped. She went from doing that several sessions in a row to nothing ever again. Never talked to me about it until I brought it up, and I'm still struggling with her over a year later. She told me she had never been that way with any other client (she's been a psychologist for like 25 years)...and I said to her "what made ME so f***ing special? Once she realized how much it hurt me, she guaranteed me she would NEVER do that with anyone ever again, she learned a hard lesson. She continued to "take things away" after that....and I never know what will be taken away next. She lied to me. I was disclosing some things to her that were difficult, but I was scared to. She assured me "nothing will change HERE," (if I were to share with her). So I did. NEXT session, she quit sitting by me, and hasn't since. I could go on.... but yeah, I guess I got special treatment in therapy, and I'm worse off because of it.
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