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Old May 20, 2016, 10:50 PM
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This melodramatic song signifies the end of an ugly era for me and the beginning of a self awareness that I wish I never had to realize. I obsessed about this song in both the end of my psychotic beliefs about Jesus, the Word of God, and my significant role in it all and in learning that I had simply been remarkably sick. It turns out my critical spiritual battle was really just rubbish and that I had been incredibly naive to believe such insane ideas. I am finding comfort in this same song tonight; it happens from time to time with no real damage. However, tonight I feel like a battle is in order and it is time to put on God's armor. Too much is happening. I feel like I am in a clear and concrete battle against evil. The enemy has a foothold that I am finding difficult to battle on my own.
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Every finger in the room is pointing at me
I want to spit in their faces then I get afraid of what that could bring
I got a bowling ball in my stomach I got a desert in my mouth
Figures that my courage would choose to sell out now

Tori Amos ~ Crucify

Dx: Schizoaffective Disorder
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