Today, I seemed ok the majority of the day. I was able to concentrate at work. No racing thoughts. I went to an event this evening and was social. I got a little overwhelmed with the crowd and had to step away but for the most part I was ok.
My only worry . . . Alcohol craving. . . A friend pointed out to me once that I only talk about going to get a drink or I show interest in drinking when I am elevated. I took note of it when she told me that and I have found it to be true. Tonight, on the way to the event, I was hoping there was going to be alcohol there. I had a glass of wine, and had to really fight not to get a second one. I became preoccupied with wanting to leave and by myself a bottle of wine and drink it tonight. All the way home, I thought about stopping at a store to buy something. I didn't let myself stop. I said I would post about it instead. I really, rarely drink. But tonight, I could totally get wasted. I'm not going to drink anything else though. The last time I got drunk, I went on a manic ride for 3 weeks or so. I don't know if I was headed there anyway or if the alcohol triggered it. I really don't want to find out. I will just stay on pc for a while until I get sleepy. Maybe the feeling will pass in my sleep.