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Old Sep 21, 2007, 12:02 PM
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I feel so tired of sharing my personal life with strangers--my therapist, my lawyer, now this therapist I saw yesterday who will be our child specialist as we split up our marriage and households.

I met with her for four and a half hours yesterday. (I kind of lost track of the time and forgot to be mindful that this is costing a lot of money!) I liked her A LOT, but today I'm still feeling exhausted. I had to tell her really personal stuff. There is none of this holding back and waiting months to develop a relationship. I guess we spent about the first 2 hours developing our relationship, then got to some of the hard stuff. It was like developing a therapeutic relationship at warp speed. It was also interesting to realize how great and helpful she is and appreciate the value of a fresh set of eyes on a problem. (I am used to the eyes of my therapist of one year's time on some of these same problems, and a different perspective was helpful.)

I am just so tired of people knowing my personal life. This feeling is growing since yesterday and the experience of having to expose myself to her. Now I feel like I want to draw back from everyone, including my therapist. I feel like canceling our appointment next week. In our session earlier this week, I shared a dream with him that made me feel really vulnerable, and now I wish I hadn't. I'm just tired of sharing. I need some space and distance from everyone and to reclaim some of me for just me. Does that make sense?
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