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Originally Posted by Ruari
8 is just true--I'm a nurse and that's common knowledge at the hospital, and I sometimes have 9 and 10 though those can also be just pheromones and you have a very sensitive nose. 
I'm just trying to learn how not to absorb everyone else's energy, at this point. My gosh, I was at a concert on Saturday night and, while we were wading through the crowd to get to our section (it was Garth Brooks, it was insane) I was having an internal meltdown. I mean, I'm an introvert and don't love crowds anyway, but it was just...uggghh. I can't explain how I feel sometimes. The only way I have been able to describe it to others is "buzzy." Not frustrated, not depressed, not sad, not angry, but like all of those things balled into one. I just want to run and scream and hide and cry all at the same time.
If I meditate daily, I can usually temper that buzzy feeling. But I'm not very disciplined. |
Firstly, a-ha! I knew ill people smelt distinctly! And I know this is rather difficult to explain, but it is both a "smell" and a "feel". A bit like how heat can be felt and smelt-cold can as well, but heat is much more intense. I certainly would not consider my nose "sensitive", though it has been accused of being so.
Secondly, I definitely understand your aggravated feeling, for lack of a stronger word, upon entering public places. I often describe my "feelings" in crowded areas as such: It is the sensation of claustrophobia and of a fly flying round and round your head, buzzing endlessly. It is like drinking too much coffee during a rather PMS-heavy menstruation. It is aggravating. That is the closest word I can think of. It is the motion that aggravates me the most. I can feel it everywhere-coming from every direction. Behind me, approaching from around the corner, this way and that. Bah! And the noises! Is your experience similar? You mentioned a tinge of sadness mingled with the various other negative emotions, so perhaps it is a bit different.