Abuse in our background or trauma of any surt is quite often the foundation block of ED's. If you have a good therapist you might want to focus on healing from this. It's work but the problem with meds is that they don't solve the REAL cause of our problems they only mask it while it continues to eat away at us.

I didn't know it at the time but my 1st serious anorexia experience at the age of 43 was due to the bad marriage I was trapped in, not the loss of my career or the Prozac. The lack of control I was in the middle of the triggers were just right when the Prozac started the weight loss for me to grab on & go with it.

Second time I was again out of control. Still trapped in that bad marriage. A bad asthma attach from forest fire smoke triggered the start of the weight loss added waiting for the birth of my foal as my mare had lost all her previous ones. That was successful but at 3 weeks old she injured her leg cut down to the bone. My mom's cancer surgery hadn't gone well & her oncologist wasn't giving her the care she needed & then I caught the home care person abusing her & finally she Od'ed her on her morphine. I got my mom to the hospital but never left her side for fear they would do something to her...police involvement...total trauma & I had a husband incapable of any support. I couldn't eat & didn't want to because at that point it was the only thing I was in control of.

ED's are not stand alone problems.

After my mom died I sold her house several years later because with the PTSD I had a hard time going back in it...I left my marriage & moved 2100 miles across the US to a place where I knew no one & started life over. I still have disordered eating mostly but I am at a healthy weight & totally active on my wonderful little 10 acre farm & surrounded by more wonderful people than ever before in my life. I eat to stay healthy & enjoy good healthy cooking. Once in awhile a bag of potato chips call my name...but if I don't buy the food it's not in the house. Even with anorexia it's easy to cross over to other disordered eating ways.

Be wise & get treatment for the underlying cause of your ED issues