Another update; had a confusing talk with my pastor this evening. I will be meeting D in about 3 weeks. Now, my pastor is telling me, don't be upset if nothing happens when you meet him. Also, he said D has been hurt before in relationships with females, in that the relationship did not go the way D wanted it to. So D has been hurt in the past, does that mean I don't have a chance with him?

Also, D asked Pastor about my political and theological beliefs. Pastor told him he did not know. I explained my beliefs to my pastor, and I am liberal, and it turns out that D is liberal, also.

Also, my pastor then contradicted himself, and said, he wouldn't have me attend this conference, if he didn't think that I would hit it off with D. (in other words, start dating him). Pastor also said he could see I had already fallen for D.

I am so upset about this... it is because of the pastor, that I decided to investigate D and learn about him, from listening to his sermons to watching some videos and reading his facebook page, and in that process, I have developed feelings for him. I'm not sorry I did, either. But I can't understand why my pastor is backtracking, and saying things that make me think I won't have a relationship with D.

I needed to vent about this, thanks for listening