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Originally Posted by Dontspeak
A mixed state, which I was diagnosed during, is depression on crack. I was literally afraid of my shadow (took overhead lightbulbs out, wore sunglasses inside). Racing thoughts, suicidal ideology, just a big ball of worst ever going really really fast.
Big thanks to the not one person that said, Dontspeak, are you ok? I think something is wrong here. Woohoo, mental illness, let's get a big old carpet to sweep it under!
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The good thing is, when someone says something like that, you're more likely to believe it. You're more likely to seek help (or die, but you can't have your cake and eat it too
).
I hate the perceptual changes and delusions (and hallucinations). Staying on antipsychotics has helped tremendously (relatively speaking). Now it's not that bad. A mixed state
does (I don't have this any other time, as some do) feel like drowning, extreme waves, no land in sight.
Nicotine helps as well.
I can't function without suffering, so a mild mixed state is for now the best I can be in. Of course, if it's any worse it's completely different.
Edit:
That (the analogy) reminds me of Life Of Pi.