...about paranoia?

I have not been feeling right lately. I feel weird. Things have gone unfocused on the edges. In a mental way. Not literally.

My husband and daughter are visiting his parents. Leaving tuesday morning, coming back thursday night. I was supposed to go, but my work are being assholes and scheduled me DESPITE how I ****ing asked off three months ago, was told it was okay, was told ****ing yesterday by my ****ing boss that it's NOT okay, and now I'm ****ing stuck! It was a pain coordinating this trip because his sister lives in kansas and it's hard/next to impossible for us all to get together. So they're going without me, though my husband said it's against his better judgement.

So I'm sort of freaking out!!!

What do you guys do when you're paranoid and terrified and alone for three days?!