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Originally Posted by Anxiousvalkyrie
I'm unsure what you mean when you ask if you 'sound like a Christian'. I am not religious (a hopeful agnostic at best) but I have intensely studied religion of many different cultures and belief systems over the years.
It's my personal opinion that anything one becomes overzealous about believing or being involved in has the potential to be dangerous. I have the utmost respect for people devoted to their faiths but I think if you are questioning whether you are entering dangerous territory then you may have your answer already in posing the question in the first place.
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I have had my symptoms of Bipolar reoccur for about 3 1/2 years since I had my psychotic break. During my psychotic break, I became hyper religious--far above any of my previous spiritual beliefs (which is common for psychosis). I was reading the Bible numerous times a day, praying all day, laying hands on people to pray, speaking in tongues (I am not Pentecostal) casting out demons, etc, etc. Looking back, one of my first symptoms was believing that an angel (who I later deemed a demon) had come to visit me and was taking over me. It was at that point that I started to literally believe that I was in a spiritual battle and that I had to fight. So I did. I would pray charismatic prayers over people, cast demons from me and in some cases cast demons from others. I heard the voice of God and sometimes obeyed the things he told me (thankfully his voice never led me to do anything deadly). I thought I was chosen. The prayers I wrote in my prayer journal were manic and insane. I don't want to get back there ever again.