I've decided I need help with my drinking. I have't had a years-long drinking problem, but over the last many months, the pattern I've gotten into has shown me that I probably can't drink "responsibly" and I probably need to not drink at all. I cannot do this on my own and need help to stop and stay stopped. From a person who has not had a years-long drinking issue, this may seem silly, but I feel very strongly that I have a problem and I do know that I can't taper off and drink only a little each day any more, even though I've only been in this pattern for about 10 months solidly, with other short bouts of over-drinking in the months and years before. The only think that stopped me was the fact that I was working, and I drank responsibly to keep my job. Now that I have no job and live alone, I have no reason not to drink to excess. I came to drinking late and love what it does for me, but I can't drink socially. I start out early in the morning and drink though the day now. I feel pretty strongly that I'll continue in this pattern and it will probably only get worse because I have no reason to curb my drinking, I've resisted the idea of AA because I like to drink and hoped I could drink responsibly, but I'm not able to. When I start to drink, I keep drinking until I pass out, then I start again.

What is a first AA meeting like?

Thanks in advance for any help.