Thanks for the responses guys.

I'm sorry for swearing so much. I'm just so angry in general! I don't know what's happening to me! I'm frenzied on the outside and on the inside. I can't really explain it. I want to explode out of my skin. I keep on destroying things. I feel like I have no control over the things coming out of my mouth. I feel like I'm losing control in general!

My situation doesn't involve being afraid of people or of anyone breaking into the apartment while my husband is away.

I'm scared of reflective surfaces. You know how when you see your reflection in a window at night and it's all blurry and warped? That's the way things look in that world in general. All warped and twisted and wrong. That is where a whole bunch of its live. And I can feel them all watching me. And I just get scared, and the negative entity has already come out because I started noticing that world where it lives. Anyway, so I can feel it on my shoulders.

I just get scared, knowing all the others are in there and could be watching me.

My therapist and husband gave me some ideas on what could help.

I was just trying to see what other people do.

But our cat wouldn't stop meowing, and she was really distracting me from my writing, so I went into the bathroom and sat in the shower, and I actually felt safe! No reflective surfaces. Nothing watching me. Very nice. Yea for showers!