I did not understand it when I was 7 years old and my best friend died of brain cancer. Terminal that is. I finally understood it, terminal, when my ex father inlaw passed away few years back from heart failure.. and a friend from cancer.. and finally my daughters best friend, age 15 of liver cancer. She told me how she wanted to die and game me her hamsters sweetest moment in my life as a mommy. Not sure why I am babbling, life happens quickly