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Still at sea. This is the area forecast for the next 24 hours, issued by the Mad Office. Gales throughout the day. Mood/anxiety. Variable. Occasional showers. Moderate or good, occasionally very poor. Memory. Poor. Energy. Variable. Moderate or good, occasionally poor. Perception. Good, occasionally moderate or poor.
Myself Today:
The biggest problem is memory (being very bad) and "mental preoccupation" (I forgot the name but it's obsessional memory recap, working memory maintenance, intermittent flight of ideas and wariness) which makes it hard to take things in. Reading is difficult.
This shouldn't stay the most functional/productive state to be in, relatively speaking.
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Mania kills cells. Brain cells die. Memories become more reduced conceptually, making more efficient use of limited means. Memories shape our reality. Our memories are more or less split in two by abstractions, conceptual reductions. Mood states with memories, concepts, attached. Memories of pain and those of joy. It causes instability, changeability. Fearing that will leave an emptiness between pain and joy and a greater divide.
See Me, Feel Me, Touch Me, Heal Me.
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