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Originally Posted by Icare dixit
Is the wrong/angry state one of hyper-vigilance, do you feel there's something wrong with how you feel, or more of a undirected dread/paranoia, more overwhelming state?
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I'm having a wrong situation right now. I should try to explain what this is like without saying wrong or not right.
However, there isn't anything wrong with the way I feel. I just feel wrong! My very being feels wrong right now!
I feel unfocused (not literally. My mind does!), off key, off kilter, not right...
Damn it! I used not right!
I can't explain this feeling!! But it's the feeling I can't handle! And when I try explaining it people look at me like I have two heads!
I FEEL ****ED!
(Husband: what does that mean? can you elaborate? what do you mean you feel wacked? lol!)
Hypervigilant. That's a nice word. Dread, also nice. Anxiety is also nice.
I also have this internal frenzied feeling, which I also can't really explain (you'd think I'd be better at this! haha).
I have these obsessive thoughts. ALL DAY LONG!!! Same things. It drives me crazy. If I could just not think for five minutes, but really, who can do that? I can't even do that when I feel right.
I don't know. Thinking about this is giving me a headache.