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Old May 22, 2016, 09:12 AM
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Originally Posted by violetgreen View Post
Maybe someone can tell me if this is a BP state, or something else. For some weeks, maybe months, I have the physical sensation of having an ocean inside of me, building pressure, noise, reverberations. Weird and I also have to watch my feelings of irritability and anxiety during an episode. Yesterday this started at a coffe shop while listening to live Irish music, eating a muffin, and drinking decaf, went on for a couple of hours. Anyone else knows what I'm talking about?
Maybe you describe it too figuratively for me to fully understand the experience. I know it must be difficult not to, but maybe you could elaborate.

I sometimes (like now) feel like I'm swimming/floating almost drowning, in an ocean but I can't imagine it being inside me (though in my mind as in a flight of ideas or confusion, but not as a more bodily sensation).
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