I think Lamictal has done a great job at reducing the length of my depressions. I was only depressed for 4 days last week, which is awesome. (Well, it's not awesome that I was depressed lol, but it's awesome that it only lasted 4 days.)

I had such a weird depression, though. I was wondering if anyone could relate.

I started believing in fate and all that sh**... like I was "destined" to die by suicide right then and there. I sh** you not, I literally believed that the "creator of the universe" destined me to die by suicide.

I never really thought about who the "creator" was... whether it was a God or just a bunch of particle physics. (I wasn't exactly using logic here, so that's probably why I never thought "who" destined me to die.)

Normally I don't believe in God (sorry), but I wasn't objecting to the idea that "God" could have been the culprit behind my "destiny".

Anyways, that's enough weird sh** from me for the day.

Edit: I wasn't super clear... Editing to make it more clear