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Old May 22, 2016, 02:43 PM
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Originally Posted by ElsaMars View Post
Something is not right with me. Yesterday I was laughing hysterically as the day began. By evening I was crying in the shower over how much I love my parents and how they deserve a better daughter than me. Then I went to sleep and had a terrible nightmares and woke up around 4am shaking and crying. My husband took a shower with me while I sobbed about my failures and crazy head. He told me not to worry, because my period is coming and this is temporary. He's probably right but I'm feeling very weeping and shaken. Trying to stay busy but my energy level is in the toilet. Whatever this is, I want it to pass soon. I'm so grateful for my family and it hurts to thing about them. They deserve someone who isn't broken.
Hopefully it was just momentary mania with depression following it. I get those sometimes. Hope it's not a mixed state.

You're kind and wise. That's not failing.
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