Hi All

I have been going through depression for months, I am on meds for the first time. I am been treated for BP1 with lamictal and risperdal and started to feel improvement.

What I am worried about is that I spent the whole day cleaning. I haven't had the energy for months to do much of anything. Only a few days ago I was having suicidal ideations not as constant as before. I feel my energy levels are up but not sure if my mood is elevated.

I am feeling a little worried as last time I had mania I was hospitalized for 5 weeks. I lacked insight as i refused to believe anything was wrong with me and wouldn't agree to hospitalization. So I was committed against my will.

When I was discharged from hospital I was still manic, after a number of weeks at home. I crashed and went into a depression state.

Could I now go back to a manic state and can it come on so quickly? I might be worrying about nothing maybe the meds are doing what they suppose to. I was hoping that I would now enter a "normal" mood and start rebuilding my life.

Thanks

Annmaria