I have a similar story. I was given SSDI in my late 20's and told I was too disabled to ever work again and for many years over medicated. It wasn't for decades before I questioned that. Long long story short, I m on less medication and doing better than I have since my mid 20's. But...I also have benefited from very good therapy. If I did it all over knowing what I know now..id refuse the antidepressants and benzos say yes to low doses of AP and mood stabilizer and concentrate solely on therapy.