Thank you my friends, you are warming a little my heart now that it is SO cold... today was another horrible day. Not a thought nor an action can interrupt the flow of gloomy images that parade before my eyes. I'm exhausted and I cry everytime I remain alone. I couldn't even enjoy my Aikido session (martial arts are the MOST significant part of my life). I did it, but I was joyless, and that made me feel even more strange.

I have a little hope, however. I called my pdoc and we realized that I was taking too little Lamictal, only 12.5 mg while I was supposed to rise to 100 mg. He tought he had told me, I didn't remember that my current prescription was not definitive. So now I will raise that Lamictal of 25 mg weekly up to 100 mg.

The voice inside my head is screaming that it can't make a difference... but I will take those pills and wait.

Thank you so much for listening and being with me