I'm the aware...an empty conscious.

The Others make me a person....they exist while I watch...an unwlling watcher, never the less.

I have very limited control next to no control. I can finally right now say all this, like an s.o.s. In the darkness because we are too relaxed.

An empty shell I am.

Will integration make me alive, r am I an Other wishing....hoping...wanting...

Its so hard to tell. I might just be a want to B.

God this sux.