It's not easy when there's an overabundance of do this/don't do this, do that/don't do that, this works for me so it must work for you, they know best so they must be right, etc. Etc. Ad naseum...
Never mind all the rhetoric about maternal depression, care of a study of roughly 900 low income mothers with children enrolled in head start as the basis to discuss how a mother's depression even if low grade can stunt cognitive ability...
You get the idea...
Take all the small moments that you can and remind yourself that effort matters.
Have you mapped out your parenting style yet? There's 3.