Ok. Background info for those that don't know - I suffer from PTSD amongst other diagnoses' and have really bad anxiety.

I was recently pulled off all of my meds because I became pregnant.

Well, things aren't going well, and its getting to the point where when I do leave the house (which is rare - twice in the last month so far) I almost feel like passing out I am so anxious. I break into a sweat, my heart pounds, all I can do is hold myself and cry for the most part. And then theres the general feeling of unwellness Ive been feeling mentally.

Today was so bad I almost considered going to the hospital - But I stopped because I feel like if I seek that help while pregnant it will reflect badly on me as a future mother. I can just imagine social services using it against me as a way to take my child when it is born. Now, I may have BAD anxiety and such, but I am not a danger to myself, nor anyone else, and am not Sui***** or anything like that, just scared of everything.

Is it wrong of me to try to seek Psychological help while pregnant? Will it automatically condemn me to having my child taken away? Why does it feel like if I show even one tiny weakness mentally than I will be judged harshly for it?

Does any of this make any sense to anyone?