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Old May 23, 2016, 04:03 AM
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Originally Posted by ElsaMars View Post
I'm not sure if this is what you mean. I went manic from drug use years ago. I locked myself in my bedroom for a month. It had a bathroom attached and people brought me food. The only thing I did while in there was call and talk to random strangers whose number I found in the phone book. So embarrassing to think about now. I hope this information is helpful to you.
Yes and no, it's less irrationally rational, maybe, so to speak. Just irrational. Not a rationalisation and barely if at all, a belief, assumption. You don't or can't think much.

It's more like the pacing. No realisation. But the praying and calling random numbers would probably be quite like it.

The showering with holy water may be like it in that it is very much the right thing to do. A need as well as a satisfaction. The praying might be like that as well.

It's all a bit like that yes, but not for months. More like hours.

Maybe you could say it's meditative. So praying might be similar in that respect.

Thanks for sharing your experiences. It helps to reflect on my own experiences. It might all be very much similar to yours.



I'm doing better now. Like the circus reached its finale and today will be all peaceful, calm, serene and easy-going.

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Oh, and I do have something similar with showering. Sometimes quite but never extremely severe, less rationalised but I do belief it's good and I need to keep showering, at least for a considerable time, sometimes 1 or more hours.
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