Sorry that you are going through this, Yis. And I do hope you can get help soon.

You are not alone, though. I doubt this will help you at all but I have seizures as well. The smaller seizures will leave my body and face spasming for almost an hour, and I am left dazed, confused, and tired. The bigger ones sometimes make me lose consciousness for a mere few seconds to a couple of minutes. I have them in my sleep, as well. A week ago I suffered two major seizures in my sleep that lasted quite a while, and I woke up with my body bent like a pretzel and hurting horribly. I know your pain and fear, and I wish I could do more than just give you an e-hug, but please know that you are not alone.