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Originally Posted by raspberrytorte
I was told I was having a mixed episode once.
But I'm not sure if it was one because I wasn't depressed during it and I thought you were supposed to be depressed during them and I just felt bad because everything that was happening to me was so horrible!
I don't remember a lot of it because I was psychotic, but, horrible, torturous racing thoughts, all night long so I couldn't sleep, bad paranoia and fear, seeing weird ****, feeling suicidal because everything felt so horrible, general frantic feeling, moments of intense euphoria, knowing the secrets of the universe, escalating to intense delusions about how I could save the world and thinking I was walking around in my unconscious mind and when I was asleep I was actually awake. Confusing time. A lot of bad feels. Ultimately I ended up in the hospital.
So, that was my experience with an episode I was told was mixed.
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It absolutely does sound mixed.
If it was horrible (which is likely) then that's the depressive part. Let's not split hairs.
The end of mania is (however shortly) also depressive, manic, so it's also mixed. Mania is just more apparent, easily discernible, positive, independent, while depression is always a bit more corrosive, negative, affecting.
Mania is fast, depression is just too slow to do more than make you feel bad and affects your beliefs ever so slightly that you become mad by nuance, in a certain mixed state, where your mood changes indiscernibly fast.