I could've gotten work as a cleaner or something like that, but I suppose I have avoided that because I would have felt bad about myself for underachieving in my life. I probably should have studied because I have social phobia and I would need a specific qualification in order to get a good job. I have no people skills so I am unable to move my way up in a job, or to get a job that requires social skills, so yeah, a specific skillset would be required.

I am 38 and still thinking about making these decisions or whether it is now too late. I don't know what I would have in mind. Maybe work as a locksmith or a gardener, stuff like that. I am on disability now, but I am starting to look for work again. And again I just hate myself for just looking for work, instead of making a plan for myself, something thought out and planned rather than just browsing online for jobs.

My plan is to read a book about what job would be good for me. I suppose it would be something to do with animals, that seems achievable at my age, and I wouldn't mind it.