had a long weekend of feeling alone. Got a migraine from thinking too much and eating junk food. I needed to deconstruct in order to build myself up again. I want to stick with what is important, what I need to add to my life and to make sure not to just throw everything out like good things. It is so hard to change. And then someone touched my heart today in a forum and I felt like I got a long hug and got told everything is okay.