Wish I was THERE! Nearing the end of the month, 1/2 of celery left, 2 onions, and 4 potatoes is the last of my veggies. Now I will be starting on my frozen soups, lots of rice dishes, and things flavored with bouillon. It doesn't matter what I have, I will find something to binge on as long as it is edible.

But I really like that you post, and respond regularly. I think we all have an opportunity here to find some key as to where this comes from and eventually unraveling the emotion).

I was talking to my husband about how I eat when I am not busy and the conversation took an interesting turn to the mind.

He always keeps himself mentally active learning new things. At this time, he is learning to roll a pen in his fingers as he works. Like how people roll a coin back and forth. He has the type of mind that constantly wants new information. My mind doesn't seek new mountains. Anyway, he thought, if I had an interest in something like that, it would keep my mind distracted so I didn't think about food constantly.

Just to clarify: He loves me just as I am and doesn't have a problem with anything about me, he was not complaining or wanting me to change, he was doing what he always does, try to think of solutions to a dilemma I bring up.

I find as I analyze the pattern of my addiction, I act on it when I am bored - which is OFTEN. Not mentally bored actually, just not manically focused on a task. I think it is more then boredom, but I mean - when my mind isn't actively focused on a task, my thoughts automatically seek out food thoughts to seek calmness and inner - idk, safety and comfort.

So for me, I think it is way wrapped up in giving me security. So I ask myself, what is causing the anxiety....

Anyway, just food for thought (PUN NOT INTENDED) hope it gives anyone some ideas as to how to pinpoint/process why we are doing what we are doing.

Best of luck to us all.

PS Edit:
Ate a salad as I wrote, now that I am finished, as SOON as I re-read and was happy with what I wrote, my brain did the relax back, then the food thoughts started again, and I am thinking of getting something. Even thought I just finished eating and am not hungry - IDC, I am going to look for something else. I am seeking a certain feeling that only comes when I feel full, but the thing is, the more I eat, that full feeling never seems within reach, it is always more.. more... more). It is a mystery. But hugs to us all! We will be together on this journey.

Edit 2. I will take a little walk around the yard and try to focus on something else.