Don't feel guilty about the weed. For many people its great stuff. Safer than alcohol, has actual medicinal value. For me it makes me psychotic, and I can relate to what you shared. Those energy drinks and workout things too can trip someone up if they have a mental health issue. You are a great mom for caring so much and doing all this leg work to get him help. I know you dont want to go to this clinic that has an opening but make the appointment there and see if you can get on the wait list to a better clinic.