Cash, I'm concerned too. You sound manic and I'm afraid the religiosity is bordering on psychosis. I know how it is, I've had many mystical experiences myself and love to believe that they came from God. Maybe they did, but they may also have come from an overheated brain...I doubt I'll ever know for sure, at least not while I'm still here on earth.

I heard once that if one talks to God, it's prayer; if He talks back to them, it's psychosis. I don't necessarily believe that, but to be honest, it's only when I'm in the throes of mania that I have intense religious experiences. I never have them now that I'm adequately medicated, and I'd be the first to wonder if I'm coming off the spool if it were to happen now.

Please get some rest if you can, stay out of the shower, and have a little talk with your pdoc ASAP. I'm worried about you.