Wow (((((((Lexi))))))))

You poor dear. I can see how this would be VERY triggering for you. If the urges are too strong, perhaps a klonopin isn't a bad idea and a good night's rest before you tackle this very difficult assignment. I wish I had the answers for you. It seems that sometimes we think that bad men are drawn to us. And I know you've had some bad experiences, considerably worse than mine, but I do know a fraction of how you feel about it. It's like, "How do these men find me?"

The first thing I had to tell myself is it's not my fault. And it's not. It's theirs. And they will pay for the things they do someday. Not soon enough.

It must be very hard to be in your shoes right now. Perhaps your T thinks that if you finally dig deep and write it down, your mind can finally process it and maybe ease it somewhat. I know, for myself, if you ask me good things (memories) I can hardly remember them if I can remember them at all, but the bad things that happened to me, they seem like yesterday and when I allow myself to think of it all, I feel it all over again. Getting it out in a journal does help some, but there are just some things I still can't talk about

I am sending positive vibes your way. You are a strong person, you have been through alot and you can do this. You can do this assignment. Think of it as a battle where you're able to fight back and this time you WILL win!

Lots of luck to you. I'm here if you need someone to talk to.

Take Care,
Kimberly.