((((sidony))))

I am so sorry things are so hard right now. I am so glad you have your family. Please turn to them often for support. Let them know how you feel. They will help pull you from the darkness. Please stay safe. Call a crisis line or your T if you need to. ((((hugs))))

I understand about having to be vigilant at night. Maybe you can steal some sleep during the day, 20 minutes here, 45 minutes there. At one point, I was unable to sleep at night and survived by grabbing what I could during the day.