Hi Everyone!
I'm not really a frequent poster as I get so caught up in everyones issues that it stresses me out - but you all seem like such a warm & wonderful community & I hope to try & be around more often!

So I was hoping that someone could help me out here. First of all I'd like to make clear that I'm 100% clear on all of the textbook terms, criteria any everything related to bipolar. But what I can't figure out is what a mixed episode "looks like". When my psychiatrist points out that I'm in a mixed episode I don't understand how she can tell.

Does a mixed episode present itself similarly to ultra-rapid cycling? Or is it where one thought could literally be "I love life & want to experience everything but then already be thinking "but I want to die". I just don't get it & when I'm "in" it I don't realize what is going on.

Could someone please help me out. I'm extremely confused.

Thanks a lot