I've told T that:
1) I engage in horrible negative self talk, and sent him a list of things I say to myself (kinda regret this...)
2) I, um, fly solo when I am anxious, to self-soothe :/
3) When I am in shut-down mode I get in bed and interlock my big toes together and just "freeze"
4) I believe this world is a dream (this belief comes and goes with me, and has my whole life)