self care is hard for me, because i have no one to see, no where to go, and no one coming to visit- so it's like, why.. why bother looking like i just left a beauty salon when all i'm actually going to do is post on here and sit in front of the tv watching reruns.. you get my drift, i just don't see the need- especially when their's no one here who actually cares.

i could look like a lion who has just been dragged through a bush, but because i live alone that's okay..

saying that though, the 1 thing i do have to do every day is brush my teeth in the mornings. i hate food getting stuck in your teeth, their is nothing worse

showers give you an oppotunity to think and be alone with your thoughts, but i always put it off... i'll shower tonight, tonight will come round- i'll do it tomorrow, and so on and so on- i'm trying to get better at it though.

but they make me feel angry and upset most of the time... i guess for the reasons stated above. why am i bothering if it's all for nothing?

1 thing i like about showers though. if the water is a nice tempriture, it can feel really nice on your skin