Okay so I'll try to make this as brief as possible. For the last 5 years I've worked off and on as an exotic dancer. This involved getting licensed in the counties where I worked. The clubs started getting bad...customers getting handsy, other girls prostituting themselves and doing drugs, to the point that it made work unbearable for me. With the help of my husband I left the industry, but I also left my only source of income. My husband works but I made 3x what he did. My car broke down and I could not afford to get it fixed so I junked it. I'm now at home with our 2 year old. I can't find a job because of the huge gap in my resume (leaving out my stripping history.) I'd like to go back to school but have no idea what to do. I have a general associate's degree,but no bacholer's. I'd like to work in health care but worry about the adult license following me in a background check. I feel like I've ruined my life. I have obsessive thoughts about this every day. I love my child but I'm used to working and making good money. I hate sitting at home all day with no car, no job, no direction and no future. Any advice would be appreciated...Even how to stop the obsessive thoughts and calm down.