I need some advice in getting over this. I have issues with a past abuse that have been recently triggered. My husband does not understand why I don't want him touching me let alone having sex. Since my flash backs have started again I feel the same feelings like right after the abuse happened. I just want to shower and shower. And I absolutly don't want any man touching me in anyway. I had sex with my husband to make him happy but I left my body during and have not felt connected to anything since. how do I get back to my old before horrible memmories self.