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Old May 24, 2016, 06:18 AM
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Originally Posted by shattered sanity View Post
i have not had 1 suicidal thought yet, and it's now quarter past 11 in the morning

yay for me

just wish the sun would bugger off and the rain would return

hate the sun... hate how it triggers my feelings of agoraphobia
Agoraphobic sunny weather, I know that one.

It must be that people used to lots of rain and changeable weather are especially vulnerable, don't you think? The extremely steady state of just the sun makes things so depressing, like empty.

It's the weather equivalent of depression: empty, understimulating, the sun the equivalent of anxiety, being what remains. No dynamic, just incessant sun, incessant anxiety.

Is that anything like how it feels? It does for me.
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